其实我没那么坚强, 我只是学会了假装.

No seriously, you can't blame me. For someone that has been through that, I know how it feels. Yes, those guys are at fault but seriously, I have a friend that is in there. Waiting for his sentence, death or not, we're not even sure. How can you ever blame me for wanting them to have a lighter sentence? I know they are at fault. Though I'm not sure if the guy died or not but seriously, he is my friend. Though we ended high school on a bad note but we are friends. We have been friends for 11y6m and counting. We have known each other for so many many years. Though I barely even know you but I know you're a nice guy. Of course, you started this mess, so you have to go through the consequences but a life for a life suddenly feels really harsh to me. I know it'll be unfair because the guy also has people that loves him and people that want my friend dead. but what if, this happened to the person closest to you? It's senseless killing. I know. I understand that but can you blame me? For wanting to side my friend, for wanting to see him again. I wouldn't say anything about the sentence. 10 years, 12 years, 16 years, whatever. I can't be bothered. All I can say is, Louis, you really disappointed us. Apparently all of what we said, fell on deaf ears didn't it? Be strong, because the road ahead of you would be really tough. If you ever move to another country, do know that despite all that, we still love you. Stay strong.

It's really funny and scary how someone can pretend to care for you. Seriously, look around you. Who can you really rely on? Who can you really entrust everything to? Apart from your family or relatives of course. But then again, even your relatives have the capabilities to fucking back-stab you and treat you as a fucking tool to save their fucking ass. If you think you can trust everyone around you, feel fucking free because until the end, you'd find out through the hard way yourself that not everybody is reliable. You cannot trust every person that walks into your life. Some may stay in your life for a long time and if you think you should trust them, go ahead. However, don't forget, not everybody would stay in your life for a long time. At some point, someone, some group, or even everyone, would leave. Don't be gullible.

I want thisssss! ): It's so so pretty ): Pardon my sudden urge to learn more instruments.


Okay so, I have no idea why I wrote those words but it's just the sudden urge. Typed while watching anime so, lalala if there is any typos. Ciao!

I can’t help but feel like they’re meant for me.

I know it's not the start of the month and me doing this now is weird but whatever. I just wanna keep my blog alive.

Day 1 - Your current relationship. If single, discuss single life.

Well, if you guys do read my blog, I don't have those mushy "I love you, boyf" stuff because I don't have one! Honestly, to me, it doesn't matter if you're single or attached. The difference is that you'll have someone to love, someone to take care of, someone that would love you back, someone that would take care of you, vice versa. Sometimes it's nice to have someone worrying about you, because it makes one feel important and loved. but clearly, sometimes it's a total pain in the ass. Putting aside the quarrels, the constant "Where did you go? Who did you talk with?" can really drive someone crazy. I'm not talking bout anybody in particular but just an example. The "just because she is my girlf/ boyf so I have to know every single thing about him/her" does not exist in the generation anymore. This whole wanting to know everything would just piss someone off, me for sure, I'd get fucking pissed.

Getting a boyf/girlf is someone you have to be ready for. And not because "oh I like her, therfore, I'd make her my girl/ him my boy" No that isn't the right way to love someone. If you really love that person, you'd be happy knowing him or her is happy. Yes, the reality of him/her being happy not because of you, hurts. I know but get your shyt together. This world is cruel, harsh, and only reality and money makes the world go round. Love doesn't make the world go round. This, is life. You can't complain because you'd have nobody to complain to. Even the police nor the government can do anything about it.

So, base line is; Don't get a girlf/boyf unless you're ready. To give and take. To give and expect nothing in return. To love someone unconditionally. To be with him/ her till the world ends. To cherish every single memory including him/her. Be by his/her side when s/he needs you.

If you're not ready, then don't get into a relationship and cause another good guy/ good girl to become a jerk/ slut. It doesn't matter if you don't have a guy or a girl now. Who the fuck cares if you're attached or single. Just don't be so desperate as to jump on every guy/girl you see. Get it? Treat your guy how you want others to treat your bro. Treat your girl the way you want your mom/sis to get treated.

Lastly, I just wanna point out that I'm not any expert in love. This is just my personal point of view of love and single life.

Goodbye, darling.

I'm still waiting for mah Yesasia packageeeeeeeeee. It's been like, 8 days! 8 fucking days. Mygawd. Gonna check the letterbox later on and hopefully it'd be sitting there. So, I have nothing much to say actually but i was fucking, fucking, FUCKING pissed at this fuckin' bitch yesterday. It was after I went to spotlight to look for Huijuan. I went ps late and she ended her break already so I went spotlight to walk walk while talking to her. Then I went over to Orchard. I got inside this glass door which only people that has the card can get in and while the door was closing, this fucking bitch came and tried to open the door and fyi the was wasn't closed yet. Firstly, I can't let her in because I don't fucking own the building and she don't fucking own a card to get her fucking ass in. So I kinda pushed the door so she cannot get in and guess what she said? "Eh she don't let me in leh" I was like, wtf bitch. I'll throw a fucking building in your damn face. I don't fucking work in that building so I don't know any of their rules and I ain't taking any chances. I know it's a small thing to get pissed bout' but seriously, I'm fucking angry! Ugh. FUCKING BITCH. _|_

Okay, I'm done ranting bout' that but I'm still pissed.

So, yesterday I went to look for this woman

And and and, on Saturday this woman came down!

I know I look ugly and the lighting sucks. Just shut up.

So.. yeah.. before I leave, I'mma leave 2 pictures here. I couldn't rotate so you'd have to tilt your head (:

Oh and also, I'mma do this

I'd start tomorrow! Just so I can have something to talk about everyday! Ciao~