personal judgement
individual assessment
trashy くだらない
rubbish
of my own will of my own volition of my own accord 自分の意志で
from now on 引き続き
specify designate 指定する
hallway 廊下
clutter < mess
all along 最初からずっと
be astonished 呆れて．驚いて言葉にならない
anemia 貧血
I feel like I have afeeling
in the first place そもそも
I feel like I lost out 損した気分
actually on my secong thought I've changed my mind