friendship or smth

Lately I was thinking about friendship and other relationship between ppl
This is very hard thing actually, sometimes I even dont get all those
complicated relations...
I have never had difficult situations with that stuff till this year.
In my situation it was friendship. :o Ppl so like bitching around how great it
is...lol
How can I put it...for me friendship is some kind of bond between ppl who shares something same with each other. Maybe its even bond between ppl who are useful
for each other. U would wonder why? Well probably because we dont call those ppl 'friends' from who we dont get nothing...its like for example me and u, if I dont talk with u, dont know nothing about u, dont hang out with u, dont share with u my feelings, mood and blah blah blah~ I cant call u a friend. o.O This is what my teacher of finance told us during one of classes, "the is no just friends but there is ppl who we need and who we dont need, and thats why u call them friends".
It doesnt mean that we use friends to get some financial pocket or something. But just we call those ppl "friends" coz we get some kind of satisfaction from them. Thinking about that when teacher told us it 1st time that there is no friends but ppl who we need and who we dont need. I was totally agree, not everyone get what did he mean, but its same inspiration of other meanings of friendship which cowardly sounds nice like: ppl who can keen on each other, shares same interest, and cares about each other~



Time passes and some friends are going out of our life, they just leave us...but when someone leaves, some new showing up. I had many different friends in past: but they left one by one changing each other: Natasha, Veronika, Ivan, Ira, Kamilla, Anastasia, Alina, Vova, Marina, Veronika, Nadya, and many others, friends from primary school, from my block, from middle and high school, from football team, from uni, from hospital...
for last 16 years they are changing each other one by one. they all was my friends o.O we dont keep in touch anymore, maybe with few of them i randomly meet several times per year...but we had spent nice time back then with each other ...so thats why it calls life.
also i still have my best friend from school, we are friends already for 10 years i think... and no matter how hard we did fight we are still best friends haha~...

FIN

P.S.: yeah i was bored, and did write it, its weirdly strange. but i always have strange mood at summer o.O oh, btw i was nice opportunity to remember all those friends which i had. TOTALLY RANDOM o.O

pic and drawing...

recently i have been sooooo bored lol

dunno what to do somehow...

or might just lazy?...


geee who knows...

fond some old picture...


here is the drawing...one pretty nice dude draw it for me



and here is original looking me...




somehow looks pretty nice after all

song in my head

somehow it just stucked in my head lately...






空へ描いてゆく　キミへ届くように...la~la~la~...

haha random lovey-dovey feeling

What was that? Omg, I have never thought that feeling in love with someone will be that idiotical. I just feel pretty random…haha…cant pay too many attention to things which I need to do or finish…and it rly weird…why that time?
Is that real? Did I rly fall in love with that boy? God…it stupid, embarrassing and weird feeling…what should I do next?
Should I bother him? But how can I do that. My mind cannot afford me doing such things…and man~…its left few days before I will leave this town...now I dun feel like leaving this town, but I guess nothing good will happen if I will stay, so It will be better to leave. My feelings don’t mean that he will respond me after all.
What should I do?...What should I do with myself felt for such boy…what’s going to happen next!? How I can loving him…man~….god…wtf…ROFL

PS: I feel kinda excited about things…whats going on…huh~ O.o Need to calm down…

random girly talks....

Random girly talks

Stayed yesterday at my friend’s home.
We are studying together, but lately we didn’t have timr at all to talk much, or spend some time together, so I visited her yesterday, afer uni.
Well while getting to bed, we were talking about boys…
Since both of us don’t have BFs.
So what need boys, and what girls want, and how come that often people do not get what or who they want…lol
1st thing, there is few types of girls those who are doing assent on their eyes, kinda sexy, can listen ppl and other nice things, those who trying to focus on their lips, are very sexy and etc, another one type probably suits me more: girls with colorful make up, or bright girls are very independent, look dangerous for men, so men afraid them. ( so I need become less colorful in order to get BF? haha Lol…that funny)
So another point to think at is
2nd thing , % of smart girls without BF is less than % of silly girls without FB. Why? Since lost of smart girls even they will fall for some boys will never run after boy, wont bother him till he will give up, but silly girls doing this and that and even more in order to get the BF, no matter what…
How come? But its really easy to understand, lots of borders do not let smart girls do that, plus their mind do not let them to do something super stupid, because it looks like it doesn’t worth doing it , and more than enough, and they cant pretend being stupid.
But for silly girls…they are actually do not think about what they can do and what they cant do, they care more about own comfort, and If this mean run after boy, bother him till he will agree to go out and other things, they will actually do it .
(Thinking about it, there are always girls who at least one time wanted to be stupid ( I was thinking about it few times as well)) So solution probably is that smart girls should work at their behavior, making some tactics
What about next point:
3rd thing is that girl should watch after own behavior, like most of boys like being smarter than girls, and so getting a smarter GF, will make the a headache so they prefer to find some silly one, because boys like being listened, but not listen by themselves…
So well its not a big deal that BF is stupid, but girl should watch after herself, and do not show how BF is stupid.

well getting a BF is kinda complicated lol
what should we do?...