DOODLE PLACE -2ページ目

as time goes by

forgettable stuff are easily removed
i don't even remember what happened last week

oh
yeah

breaking up made my heart broken
but its past

its already the past ive been through

then time goes on
moves on
as if it doesnt notice that im here

it just moves on

its pretending that it doesnt notice

im okay with that
im totally okay

but something stuck deep inside of me
and it doesnt move
but it knows that im here

bothers me a lot

it doesn't have to notice
it has to pretend

for me to say

itchy but i cant reach
scratchy but it hurts

what am i supposed to do?

what should i do?

i just wanna scratch but i cant coz it hurts


so i don't want it to notice that im here

please
ignore me


leave me alone

none of them

because of me
i get hurt

because of myself
i cry

but i still think of him
im worried about him

people told me that i shouldnt
but i do
i cant help it

everybody experiences this kind of stuff
that i know

its weird that i feel sad
if everyone knows how i feel
if i knew that fact
i dont need to feel what i feel right now

coz that happens to everybody

but im sad

i liked him
i might love him

but hes never liked me as a gf

im sad

im so sad


ive never feel that loneliness since before i went to abroad
at that time
i was dying
i was like, dead

and that again
im dying
im like dead

im empty

i don't need to text him
i mean i cant

no more good-morning texting
no more "call me tonight"
no more eat 3times a day
no more dating
no more kissing
no more everything with him



dont wanna think about it
but i do

wish i could dream
wish i could be in a dream forever
so that i can see you

but every time i get up
the loneliness eats me
so i would say


no more


no more to think of you
no more to think of you

i tell myself


hate you

but i still

think of you



but no more



no more






no more...

すぱいす

感情を表現することが恥ずかしいなら
無理にすることはない

でもそれが伝わらなくてはならない時に
相手が必要としている時に
そうとは言えない

人生なんて色んな調味料で味付けされてて

からい、あまい、すっぱい、しょっぱい

色々ある


深くいけないのは
あたしのせいなのかな

もはや信じる信じないなんてわけわからない
何、信じるって

もとから何も信じてない

だからと言って信じてないなんて意識もしてない

信頼なんて後付けでしょ、所詮


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