Babies, photoshop and becoming an adult.

Today I found out that my best friend is pregnant...

She's been pregnant for over 2 months now, she's not sure. I found out through facebook. I'm not happy for her. .

That sounds mean, right? Well, first things first. She's only just turned 19, she lives with her boyfriend in a council house they can't afford. They're in a lot of debt. She works as a part-time cleaner. He is still an apprentice. They always complain they are broke and can't afford their house. Both of them are drug addicts. This is a completely unplanned pregnancy and I've seen her in less then 2 months ago and she was doing drugs, smoking, drinking and whatever else. These things dont usually bother me, but this is a life she's got growing inside her .

I dont think she understands what she's doing. I think she thinks that this is just one of those cyber-babies; those dolls you have to look after in Home Ec for like a week. I think she think's it's going to be like babysitting a child and being able to give it back at the end of the day, when she gets sick of it. I dont think it's occured to her that this child is going to be completely and utterly dependent on them, dependent on two drug addicts that can't even go a week without their vice, nevermind raise a child, two drug addicts that cant afford their own house nevermind keeping a baby. I just wish some people would understand that this child is a real human being, a life, and it's going to be brought into a world it wont understand and then these people who can barely even look after themselves are going to try and raise it and it will be punished for it's parents stupidity.

I'm also pretty annoyed that I'm one of her best friends and I find out, later then everyone else and through a status report on facebook. No text. No call. No nothing. Suppose it goes to show the kind of person she is .


All of this has made me really think about my own life . It's made me think about the fact my birthday is only 6 days away now and what I've got to show for my 20 years of being alive . I'm unemployed, broke, I dont really have anywhere to call home, Im clearly loosing my best friends... . At least I have a dream and a man I love more then anything else in the world , that's more then some, right?


The only thing that excited me today was getting Photoshop CS4 . I'm going to look through some decent tutorials and waste my day. After straightening my hair of course !

Coco

Introduction.

Hi all .

I suppose, since this is my first entry and all that I should probably tell you a bit about myself, so here goes.

Name: Call Me Coco.
Birthday: 22/12/1989.
Lives: England.
Single/taken: Taken, for 3 years now.

Favourite Music: Techno, Jungle, Dnb, Jpop, Jrock, Reggae, Dubstep, Dub.
Favourite Movies: The Secretary, Moulin Rouge, American Beauty, Vanilla Sky, Natural Born Killers, Spirited Away, Kung Fu Hustle.
Favourite TV: Family Guy, The Mighty Boosh, Life, Gossip Girl, Strawberry on the Shortcake.
Favourite Anime: Chobits, Love Hina, I My Me! Strawberry Eggs, Kodomo No Jikan, Sailor Moon, Marmalade Boy.
Favourite Day of the Week: Saturday.
Favourite Season: Autumn.
Favourite Food: Pasta.
Favourite Dessert: Profiteroles.
Favourite Drink: Tea.

Likes: Reading, Writing, watching TV, reading Manga, reading fashion mags, shopping, dancing, singing, photography, art, walking, socialising, partying, baking, watching anime, surfing the web, playing video games, dressing up, learning Japanese, ettiquette, make-up, skincare.
Dislikes: Eating too much, gaining weight, being cooped up inside all day, not having a job, being broke, not being able to talk, bad music, animal cruelty, bullying, perverts.

What am I on Ameba for?: I'm trying to learn Japanese and learn more about Japanese culture and I think this is a great place to do that. I am hoping to enroll in University next year to study it at college level and would like to gain a background knowledge. I eventually want to get a teaching degree and speak fluent Japanese and eventually teach English over in Japan. High hopes? Maybe, but I like to have a dream.

Other Notes: I love Japan and the Japanese, but I am proud to be English, I'm proud of my heritage and where I come from. I'm proud that there are so many mixed societies in this world and I have studied a little about them all and the one place that interested me the most was Japan. I'm not the sort of person who likes to stay in one place. I've rarely spent more then a couple of years living in the same house and moving to a different country would suit me so. Maybe then I'll find a place to call home? We'll see. Until then I'm just that crazy English girl who tries to speak Japanese.