I've lost motivation.

I planned on typing out a whole post on my feelings, and I was so far. I really needed to cry and this was going to be my release. I give up. I fucking give up. Every time I try and say something it's fucking useless!!!! Why haven't I just died at this point. It'd be easier than dealing with all the shit in my head. I hate this. I hate this world. I hate everything and I want to disappear. I want everything to be fixed. I'M FUCKING TIRED. I WANT IT ALL TO END. I JUST WANT IT TO FUCKING END.