Forgotten Form of Art

I was wondering why I was feeling so un-inspired when doing my plates (art works).
I realized what it was, when we had our (class's) recollection. I forgot to put myself in the art. I realized I lost myself when doing artworks. I was so focused ongetting better at my talent, trying to make it perfect, that I lost myself in the process. Keeping myself in a box. I must learn to stop, relax, and think. But it's a little hard to do that when at home there's nothing but race against time. Nothing but pressure. Nothing I can only sense temper. When at school, I feel more relax. But still I bring my impatience with me. But how can I practice to relax when I'm at home?


Well at least now I know the missing piece. Patience and Myself.


I feel better to have finally learned that. Thanks to the Priest last Mass. I finally understood Art, What really is and what form it takes shape, and to my 2 nicest friends/mentors at school. Always helping me in my needs and not asking anything in return. I feel terrible for asking help. But they're my only hope to pass the exams. I should do something good in return. But what?

Morning...

HHmmm... When was the last time I typed a blog? I no longer remember.

Starting June I became an art student in LCCB. My course, Bachelor of Fine Arts Majoring in Digital Media Arts. I didn't actually plan to take that course and school. But it just happened that way. Maybe it was fate or destiny. I don't know. But I'll soon find out.

Now that I'm back in school. I have to learn how to get organized. I'm not really the most organized person in the family but I must do it. I have a lot on plate now, but I think it's good that way. In that way, I'll never waste any of my time. I have wasted years of my life. But at least, it feels as if that my chains are slowly releasing me. I can finally walk. It wasn't easy at first but if I put more effort into it. I will, in the end, break free from my chains.


Girl ascends from the darkness.

Heaving heavily, kneeling down, tired from the weight of the heavy chains. She took one more pull. Then the rusted chains started to loosen around her. She no longer cared for her fear. She knew her friend the fear will only lead her to more suffering. Curious of the outside world. She no longer cared of the past and the future. She decided to act now.

Far and Away

I never thought I'd miss the city so badly. I miss the busy streets and of course events that are always held at malls. Here is the province, it seems so calm and peaceful. But I'm really not they type of person who likes to be at peace. I want adventure!

I miss Animes too. Here, my family doesn't have an anime channnel on cable TV. I have to call the local cable operator for that. But I'm not the one paying the bills here. ha ha ha...

I miss a lot of things in the city. I guess, must be, HOMESICK!
I don't like being homesick. It's as if a part of me has been taken away from me. A part of me I left. But that's okay. Maybe in the future I can go back. In the meantime. I should finish my studies.


If only I could scream this line "Oh! How I miss Animes, and Cosplay events! The concerts of other international artists! Fruits! How I miss STRAWBERRIES! How I miss the city and it's busy streets! Chaotic places. I miss the shopping districts! Tha Malls! How I miss SM Mall of Asia! How I miss the view of the sea at SUNSET! I miss the city so much. Though I maybe far and away. In my heart the City will stay.