Every day of my life I’m exhausted. I’m exhausted going through the motions pretending things are fine. I’m exhausted feeling through these intense emotions when they hit me from out of nowhere and knock the wind out of me. I’m exhausted not understanding why I feel the way I do.
Everything is so unbalanced in my life.
I’m sad but I don’t know why I’m crying.
There are moments where I’m alone and I just start crying for no reason what so ever. But then there are times I completely repress it and hold it in and ignore the pain I’m feeling which makes it ten times worse when it hits.
I want to be in the moment, I want to be happy but there are times when I’m so emotionally checked out.
You ask me what’s wrong and I say tired
You ask me why I feel the way I do and I don’t have an answer.
There’s no way to answer why because I don’t have that answer. It’s just this feeling. That’s the only way I can describe it. Because when everything in my life is going well and I’m successful and have friends and a loving family and an active social life, I have every reason to be happy and I’m frustrated that I’m not
