today, i use english after a long time.

n i wanna write diary in english.

i will probably lose interested in the near future,

but i think it's good thing for me if i don't write frequent.


*moning

i take lesson in sado.

it start 10:00am every wednesday.

but today, i got up 9:00am !

n i shoud hav withdrawn some money !

so i was late the lesson a little...


*afternoon

10:00am-2:00pm, i took lesson with few students from teacher mrs.yokoiyama.

everyone kind for me.

so i like them n the time which practice sado with them.

to tell the truth, i thought stop the lesson because i don't hav enough money for it.

but while i talked n practiced with them, i became think i don't wanna stop the lesson...

i wanna become good at sado !

i wanna talk more time with them !

i wanna wear kimono !


i only work harder... ;(

hmm...

i wanna write diary about i wanna.

not about i can.

but it's difficult !

without realizing it, i chose '' i can ''

why ?


02.12.09




みんなしねえええええええええええええええええええええええええええええええ


でもその前にあたしが死にたい。

なんで ?


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