life sucks!
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and that's it!
No not at all, but right now... ? It is!
Situation with my mother is getting more and more worse, financially...
So what am i about to do?
I take over some more bills, to pay them...
Aren't i nice?
Well, i am and i just gave in. My f**king little brother is getting is F**king will.
Well, just for my mother's sake, her sanity and health!
This f**king little brat is just driving me crazy, as well as the whole situation itself!
By the way... it's nearly a year now, after my father passed away and my mom and my brother were alone. And the financial support was, not really gone but, down to the lowest. And well i took over all the payments for the funeral and most of the 'shit' my father left behind.
And well what do i get? most likely nothing in return. Not from my mother, my mother is grateful and all. But she doesn't want to bother me with most of the problems, she has.
And now while i am at home, more bad news came up. Like, loosing her two little jobs at once. Well nice birthday gift, ne?
My brother and my mother are sharing the housing costs, like rent, electricity bills and so on, but he refuses to give her some more money for groceries. And that's driving me nuts! I told him, he has to give more and what is he doing? running away...
As if this would solve the problem itself. I know what it means to have little money. i most likely had all of my f**ked up life. So what the hell is he thinking? I really don't know...
i just know well enough, it's hard! But it's something you have to go through in a f**ked up life like ours! Running away won't solve anything.
He just should get up his ass, and talk and think it over, with my mother, how to solve this for a while.
But he doesn't! so i am the one who is solving it, by taking over more bills and paying them. Well that's me...
And also there is no other way to solve it! just me paying more and more stuff, for my mother, without getting the employment exchange to know. If i would send money directly, that would become a huge problem...
i'd like to give money to her, but i can't! If i do, and they get to know more money will be 'lost'... .
So that is why my life is actually f**ked up!
that's it for now...