I have not written this diary for a while.
I luck the motivation to study English.
I'm so sorry.

I'd like to have another opportunity to use English...
Now I'm listening to the Christmas Album "My kind of Christmas" by Christina Aguilera released about 13 years ago.

It's old but her voice is amazing and move my heart.



I can't feel "Christmases atmosphere" in my life.
There are few houses which are decorated with lots of lights in my neighborhood but I feel that they are different from "Christmas".

I'd like to see bigger and more beautiful Christmas trees like what is in NY!!!
Maybe I could see them in Nagoya city but I wanna see "real" ones.
Today I decided I didn't do anything and I slept about 15 hours!
So I really didn't do anything.
I'm afraid to turn my physical rhythm upside-down.

I'm going to cook dinner.
But I have no Idea again...
I had slight fever last night.

My husband has got cold since last week.

I might get cold,too...

I'm in bad health at my birthday every year.
Maybe in the days around my birthday it get cold suddenly.
( By the way, my birthday is November 20.)

I thought I would be in good health in this year's birthday because I was housewife now so I didn't see so many people.
But it is wrong.....

I'm going to see my birthday in my bed......しょぼん
I am disappointed to Japanese politics.

There's no politician which I wanna vote for.
There's no political party has opinions what is closer to mine.

In next month we need to vote in House of Representatives election.
Is there anyone which I can trust??
I read some books about Christianity.
It was very interesting but I knew that it was hard to visit a church near my house.
Because the church take Evangelicalism(maybe Lutheran).

The thought of Evangelicalism might be too conservative for me.
Maybe Christianity is conservative for me.

But It was helpful to understand foreign cultures.
I'd like to know about other religions.

I have a Facebook account but I don't know how to handle it.
Because I'm afraid myself to be known by somebody I don't know.

To my surprise, I got a friend request from very old friend (maybe).
I'm happy to know what he dose now, so I accepted the request.
I'd like to share what I do but I'm still afraid to write personal things or upload some pictures.

Do you have FB?
Do you know how to handle FB?
USA presidential election was over.
I'm glad that Obama won!

When I watched TV shows about this election, I realized that there are still so many difficult elements behind US society, for example, money, races, sexuality and more.

I deeply moved by Obama's victory speech but it means these things are there.


And I'm interested in religion. We can't talk about their political testaments without religion, especially Christianity.
But for me,Christianity is so unfamiliar because I was raised in Japan and my family has no religion. I have no religion, too.
Sometimes I feel that my life could be more easy and happy if I believed a religion.

Now I'd like to learn and understand some kind of Christian doctrines.
It will helpful to understand foreign cultures. 
I was happy when I found new dance studio near my house.
I'm going to trial lesson next Monday.

I told my husband about it when I picked him up from the station because he had a drink with his friends.

But he didn't feel like agreeing that I had these dance lessons.
I couldn't understand why he said like that at all.
I was very disappointed.
I guessed he might be happy to hare that.

It's midnight or early morning now but I can't sleep because of anger.
He drunk so I didn't tell this feeling yet.

When he will wake up, will he remember about this?
Now American presidential election has started.

There were lots of TV programs about this election and I watched them.
They told me many different viewpoints of US society and they were very interesting.

I felt history of US society and movements are very interesting.
Because I can't feel Japanese society dose not have "movements" like in US.
I think Japanese don't understand and think what is "democracy" we have.
I feet US movements have some power which Japanese don't have.
It is wonderful for me.

However there's dark side in what I feel wonderful.
I know that.

But I'm interested in them including dark side.



By the way, I hope Obama would win...
I like him because he has complex background and he always think about how to help poor people .
It is my personal opinion.