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A lesbian girl can't tell her lesbian friend that she LOVE HER as a compliment
I BELIEVE IT
stop saying i love you if you dont mean it
i am fucked up inside and there a small part of me still believe in miracles and shit
i still have small hope that some girl will be so perfect to me
will safe me and shit
but i should wake up
girls are hard to understand
so complicated
SO IF U REALLY LOVE ME
TELL ME SO
not as a fucking stupid compliment
but as FEELINGS
ahhhhh how i wish that someone will love me the way i loved my ex
my feelings were so amazing and now i am seeking love again
as much as it hurts and sick
as much as u want it again and again
my ex still dating her fucking bf enjoying cyber sex with him
ugh such a bitch idk how i loved her
back to being girly i read lol
u can't help who u fall in love with anyways
do u
i shuld get my shit together
love screw me up so many times i should not let it do anymore

My fav movies !

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this movie so emotonal and so good it's a true story about the super model Gia
Gia is the most beautiful will ever see !

RIP

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30/7

05:24 28/7/2012


i shaved a little half of my head

4:55 30/7/2012
i told her and i showed it to her

SHE TOTALLY FREAKED OUT !
the look in her eyes was scary
the words from her mouth were sharp !
i just dont understand
it's my own body ! what does she care
she didnt care when i tried to commit suicide she didnt even talk about it
and now she is making this a BIG DEAL !
messed up family
fucked up to the bottom
and then she start to talk about the most annoying topic ever !
her fucking god
the god of blood
the god of war
the god of hate
no way i am going back to that black shit
i am trying to break free
even her words hurts so much
how can she wish me illness just for her gods sake?
all i was thinking about was
"ur dream will come true someday u will find me died"
she make feel bad
always always always
i am never good enough for her NEVER !
my good is bad and my bad is bad
everything i do is wrong for her
she taught me
 to hate
to fear
to stop dreaming
i am really sick of everything
idk where to go
i don't wanna go
i just want an escape from everything
i even thought of drugs
in fact i think about drugs a lot
drugs suicide and losing everything for the sake of a fake freedom