happy friday

I exactly have no idea what I should do ahead of "the lonely weekend and 2 weeks"..learn to cook?learn to turn off the light when u have to?learn to lock the door?or learn to get accustomed to no-echo speaking?I don't know..I used to stay at home alone once when my mom had a trip,just 2 days. At a certain moment,I think I am an adult or a typical student abroad. I have to think what i should do if i need a help? What i should do if I leave the key at home?What i should do if Im afraid? actually no answer....

Queen B said someone got her head chopped off because she just only thought her heart. I know I should not just follow my heart in a real life,in the society if u long to live.U have to make the friends whom u "have to" make,u have to do something u have to do,u have to smile even though u're not willing to do that,u have to say "yes" when your heart is struggling. Sometime the world is going to the opposite direction if u are not the one of them.

I rethink a lot these days,I heard some music that i didn't heard before.I went to the place that i didn't go.I tried to be nice because I want to be different from the "old me".But I found that I couldn't live a life against my wishes.I tried to get used to the "perfume",I tried to be one of them but I couldn't. There was a sound in my mind along:"u are not belong to them.u are not belong to here.Just go.Just leave."I have to admit that i would go if i could. For sure.

I don't want to get my head chopped off,but I think I can spend the normal life as long as I keep going with my wishes.Hope I can see myself of who I am in the future,the "initial appearance" and the "my-style passion".

: ) have a happy friday? yup,i hope.

Winter spree : )

TOO MUCH to say about the winter,though it's horrible and it make my horizon widen haha :D

I have made it wait for a little bit long time,so I don't want this situation to keep going.I thought I'd better write somthing down ,so as to my "lazieness"won't be unbridled any more.In the other way,my little airport left its message to captain,it said:"im gonna be moldy,im gonna be moldy!!"ok,i thought,i should do something in this week,because i have lots of photos that is gonna be messy....

What do think about your winter?! to be honest,i have no idea that i love it or i hate it at most time.Im just telling the truth,because sometimes it will make u exhausted and sometimes it's gonna be nice,especially when the sunshine turn up! i absolutely love it.

Obviously,today is not a day of weekend,I sort out my photos and upload them to here,though. I'd better go now,because i have lots of work to do.How are you doing?are u nice?i think you're.I hope you are : )

18th birthday :D

hi buddies. i guess u know it will be a good thing if i start with this prolog.Yes,im 18 now.

we had a good night ,i would like to call it "feast"rather than "gathering"or "party"...my aunt cooked a lot of dishes for me,inviting her best friend also...I received a lot of presents,from Nisa and maomao.I never imagined i could received several presents from the same person for several times,u know i mean?anyway,that was a big suprise for me...one of the presents impressed me most is a birthday card,i love it because they sticked a maple which is still red completely into the card...i heard that they picked up the maple in the best time ever...the season which was most beautiful ever during the year...thank u friends...u made my day,and left me impressing memory of my 18th birthday even though today was a horrible snowy day....but i still love it :D

Last night,i stayed up writing to myself...I talked to myself with my pencil,being the other me.I told myself a lot of things that i didn't dare to face before...and i told myself what about the life,what about my friends,what about my family...I told myself what I　always want to be..I told myself who I am.

As the other me,I wished myself would be better and stronger,never head down in front of troubles.

Bonnie i have no idea that how many times i have mentioned u in the little airport! surly,u're the important one of my life,of my memory..the birthday card is so big! I brust into laughing as i saw it .How awesome it is!!The pictures are so nice that I reminded our memory at once. I know what u're talking about,I know what u're hoping for...anyway,we're friends today,then tomorrow,then next year,then next next year...who knows how long it will be? I just want to tell u ,let us keep it as we can!

Thanks for everyone who send me a message on my birthday.....S:happy 18th birthday! no matter how much trouble you're in, no matter how fragile you're,I will stand by your side,and support u forever...because u're the best in my mind, ever.