I do have moments when all I want to do is close my eyes and block everything.
Indulge in this complete bleakness and defeat.
To let it mingle and hurt my ego.
To bask in complete negativity until there's nothing left.
To let these tears roll to its limit,
until it dissipates into oblivion leaving nothing of its black soot but emptiness.
Emptiness in a good sense, like the feeling of relief from barfing, that kind of good.
Then I open my eyes as if nothing happened minutes ago.
Instead, waking up with a new soul and renewed sense of hope,
a new page of life to struggle and win again.