夢 の一

1st day working at 二姐's working place. (I seem to be replacing her [like my previous job] since she was leaving. Weird is, the place seems to be Taiwan as well, which means, I'm working in Taiwan and not being with my family.) I was even thinking to myself, "I'll be flying home every weekends and then back to work".

Anyway, office job and seems pretty professional. (Can't remember my actual job..). The boss's a lady... I had to stay behind or rather like ot... 二姐's friend asked me to switch off everything when I leave which she did and showed me. There's 2 male colleagues staying behind as well, 1 senior coaching the junior... (I think.) (Did talk to me but can't seem to remember and 1 of them, if I'm not wrong is Dan Quan!!!)

And switch now...

I took the elevator down, leaving some buildings... maybe my office. I turned back and there were all these really high rise buildings behind me. Then I was running (just the action) and end of in a bus stop.

It's packed and it seems everyone's focus is on this caucasion guy. He's bald, muscles mixed with fats build (LOL), and that pair of eyes... Almond sharp eyes... Everyone's there to catch his attention and clinge a deal with him. And everyone's working in the fashion line (supposed to be famous but none seems to be on the current market of my time) and he's a designer (or something like that) that all wants to work with. There were even some ladies sitting across of him, winking at him and stuff, to catch his attention.

He was smiling in the whole process (the crowd in the bus stop's really noisy, talking to him and all), more like those accomplised smug or whatever.

Had no idea what's it about but anyway, my bus arrived! Kinda squeezing my way through for my bus (and I did managed to board despite the immense number of people). I think I shouted or something and caught his attention.

He was onboard as well (so were the others, all behind him) then he was talking to me just in front of me... I wasn't really paying attention as I kept pushing his face up from his chin. He was talking to me all the time with his face down and eyes up... (Did I mention very sharp eyes?!) Eventually, he asked me something and I said, "I don't like you talking and staring at me like that". I didn't say it in a firm tone more like a casual remark but he paused and was pretty taken back by that comment. It must have amused him to announce that he wants to work with ME! (HUH? I'm not with that crazy lot! I'm just waiting for my bus) The lot were kind of like a blur and he was laughing (not at them though). When I got home, noticed that I've seem to be been doing some clothes and shoes on my own as well.

Part III...

Shopping alone and I've never seen the places where I'm shopping before! Walking around and asking about cells on the way. THEN, that pig appeared! Seems like we're well acquainted or maybe just got to know one another not for long. Anyhoo, he brought me around the malls and not-so-malls like areas to shop. He seems to be very familiar with the area.

And we came to this shop, selling accessories like shoes, clothes, chains and stuff. A small shop whose owner seems to be Korean. Not really goatie, beard or moustache but small fragments here and there on his face and droppy eyes. Looks like a cool dad and doesn't look that old... That pig seems to know him and both greeted. He was talking on the phone when he entered. There's a korean girl saying that she wanna change the shoes she's trying, yellow rubber-like big shoes, kinda like the ones Sora's wearing... It seems her foot had white powder all over due to the shoes. She was speaking in Korean and the owner just told someone inside the store to be changed while still on the phone. Was looking at the girl then looked around the place. I even put on my big eyes trick while looking up. Felt someone was beside me when doing that (it's a small place so not much to walk about). While leaving, that pig said bye or nodded while I turned back... Waved and smiled sweetly(!!!) at them. The boss and the other seems to be his son (tall, pretty fair and had a kinda like a snow cap on) Think I vividly heard the boss told the son, the pig's interested in me and don't think about it.

Shopped for a while more and the pig did helped me asked about cells on the way... Then we stopped by this shop selling all kinds of bags! A medium size bag with ribbon at the side-corner, 2 toned with leather kinda pattern on it... There were abt 3 other colors (black was the only one that can't really see the 2 toned) but the brown one caught my eye! Love it and looked around, wanting to buy more! But the pig seems to be impatient and wasn't really happy that I wanted to see more.

Then switched to the scene where we're sitting down and eating or something... I think I did manage to get my bag and some other stuff as there were shopping bags around. Anyhoo, that pig's DRUNK! And started talking nonsense... he said I haven't been touched by anyone and he wants to do me or something. And a thought came to me, he's been nice to me just to get me laid eventually...

Then, he came. The son of the korean owner... He stood behind me, I felt his tall presence. I looked back and he went to hold that pig(think that pig stood up and went on with his craziness), We were out of the building with the son still carrying him. Facing one another, I nodded with my face down and said, "Arigato" (!!!) to him... He looked down(well, he tall and I'm pretty short) at me and smiled... I must have been shy and seems I'm kinda fond of him as well even though it's just a glance from the shop... And WOKE UP!

THOUGHTS:

Everything's so surreal! Except that my previous job was kinda like an office one and I did replaced my sis... And my love for bags and I am currently searching for cells as well... Not through shops though... All these doesn't link to stuff that I met or do currently...

Anyway, the face of the caucaion guy's really clear in my dream. His whole face! So clear that I still remember now... It's hard to remember/see the faces in dreams... Waste that I can't see the korean son's face, not at all...

Weird that I'll dream of Dan Quan and that pig... I'm not even close or acquainted with them, just know that they exist. And it's been YEARS since I've seen them. Well, at least I know about DQ's new recently that he's getting engaged... but that PIG? Who's he? He's in my class and super fugly, annoying and just... EWW!

I can't remember his name but only knows he's in my class and most of the girls dun really like him. He trys to act cool like the other guys and it doesn't work... Speaking of him reminds me of Zefeng... super skinny senior that detained and ends up in my class... He may be super skinny but he's quite good looking plus he's cool as well... I called him, Z-faing, which evolves from his name... Anyhoo, just remembered him due to the pig... They were from the same class previously as well and friends

Should have joted down previously about my "CSI-kinda" dream... it's a WHOLE dream that can really be a screenplay... lol... Well, at least it did consists of some blood and murder which always happen in most of my dreams

Luna

The moon seems fuller every day and at a rapid speed for the past days... Today's at its First Quarter Too cloudy thus not too bright. In fact, it does look like it's emitting an evil glow. Hmmsz, today aint that evil though, there's even more EVIL ones, OOH-HO-HO! 中秋節 or rather, as I would call it "吃月餅節" drawing near. Thus the rush for the moon to be full~

Speaking of moon, an interesting cab driver noticed that I was gazing at the bright moon. It was one of those after late night movies and was on my way home. Well, he was kind of strange to begin with so... Nonetheless, an amusing fellow... He went on mentioning there's life form on the moon, Chang-er, something like that... I'll give him credit that he did notice me looking at moon and the fact that I do 月 immensely. LOL! Oh right, he did discuss politics to me~ Hahaa, either there's nothing to talk about other than politics or I have the "TALK POLITICS" face, 'cause that's what all the most of my cab drivers do. The former's more believable, I guess... Wherever I am, I give the impression... well, let's just say I've got a well knowledged sales person face to others... No idea if it's an insult or compliment but I'll rather take the latter. I'm off topic again

Recollection I: 乾媽Judy

Suddenly thought about her while I was bathing, no surprise there... It's been years and I do think of her once in a while. Guess I miss her, wonder how's she now... I was originally a customer of hers and then became her god-daughter. Whatever in between's a blur to me, maybe I stopped by her place a couple of times and thus... A secret godmother of mine that my family aint aware of.

Those were the days of my rebellion, something like that... Didn't like going home as there's practically no one at home and I didn't feel a sense of belonging~ Parents working, 大姐 was a heavy party go-er then and 二姐 was out somewhere as well. Our family wasn't close in one bit. Home to me then wasn't one but just a place to sleep and stash my stuff, like a hotel room.

If I'm not loitering with my friends, I'll be at her push-cart stall (which sells mainly jewellery). Mainly to accompany her, tend her stuff and help out. Remember I did stay quite late as I helped her packed up her items. Interesting concept then, a few push-carts side by side. There were other vendors around too, no or rather, 姊姊s...

I'd been smoking then (Virginia Slim, very light flavor and interestingly, heard it's smoked mostly by homo.) and it's also a place where I could freely do so. Judy and the rest were cool about it and I even took hers! I was almost caught by my dad when I was tending the store for her and smoking at the same time... Panically, I hid the cigarette under my skirt/butt (was wearing school uniform)!

There's this lady, maybe in her late 20s or early 30s, I think she was quite pretty, I can't really remember but she's definitely well maintained, lol~ Lemme see... She's fair, slim, long legs, seems like a 嬌滴滴 but foxy lady... Just can't remember her name. She had this stall beside Judy and basically the only I converse with besides Judy. If I wasn't wrong then, she seems to have pretty much suitors and like 3rd party mistress. Just find that she's an interesting person~

I remember Judy making/fixing jewellery and there's this jaw action that she'll do when she's using force... A deep trademark of hers that I'll always remember~ She pierced my ears for me, 3rd hole twice... Wonder if that's the reason my skin slightly thinner or it may just be bull... Brought me to do facial in town, a shop of her friend's, That's my 1st time doing cold mask, whoot! Wonder how I managed to get out of the house at that time for that age of mine. Oh crap, and that was when that nasty roach climbed up my body while having dinner, MAJOR GROSSNESS!!!

Went to her house or relative of hers for body wrap or something... I remember his nephew came walking in with me on the bed in a pretty awkward position, lol~ Can't remember much now and my sentence structure doesn't seem to make sense... Basically joting down stuff that comes into mind...

This lasted for a period, something happened, something I owed her that made me avoid her... She contacted me several times thoug, but the avoidance eventually led to zero contact. It's my part, guily conscience that stops me from contacting her. It have been close to 10 years now and thoughts of her do come slipping in and out my mind. It may be too late but I remembered there's a lady working nearby that's pretty acquainted with her. She's my only hope if I were to find out about Judy. On the other hand, they may just be nothing more than hi-bye pals that just happenend to work at the same area. Well, when I've plucked up the courage and finally able to do so... Not too long as well... Hopefully I'll get my lead and able to find her eventually. Too much regrets for my life so far and unabling to maintain contact with her's 1 of my regrets. I have regrets but I don't live in them or rather I try not to.

Wrote pretty much for a blog entry, this always doesn't work for me... I need a diary rather than a blog... I talk too much and shutting up now~