down,

how many days has already passed since I wrote the last diary which concluded "to be continued..."?

I'm totally down these days, maybe from the end of September. Lots of thing to do, and many of them don't go well. "Negative spiral" starts from just a little irritation, and now it causes a stomachache.

not good

don't like it

don't like myself right now

assignment for summer vacation

is finally done! and next semester starts in 3 days. *sigh*

I just wanted to look back my summer vacation this year.

Every year my summer starts with volunteer which is English drama activity for kids. But this year was special, for it was my last time to work on it. The last two years I mainly worked on costumes, and I wish I could this time, too. As I said, however, this year I had to give it up. There were 2 reasons. One is job-hunting, of course. I was totally occupied with it in the last semester and insanely busy. So, I chose music position instead of costume, which it was right choice actually. Editing music was not so much hard as preparing about 20 costumes. And the other is, I was thinking. I was thinking that I experienced the costume position for two years. so it maybe about time I should hand over the position to other younger co-workers so that they learn how to manage and teach the work to next future co-workers. I learned it's important to know when to leave. To talk about how the drama performance was, yes, Alice in Wonderland succeeded. Every participant was amazing. (Well, it's secret here. I substitutes a white rabbit for a child who was absent, and few audience realized I was a college student among kids thanks to my height. )

Next event was I went to the office after I got an offer. Signing up, filling up some sheets and lunch. My future co-workers are really kind and nice and...... I'm so happy :) can't wait induction to see other co-workers in October.

Then I went back to my hometown.
It was still August 4th. omg it's already 1 month ago.


My eyes are getting tired because I typed and typed and FB and typed and DVD and typed....... for 3 days, so


to be continued.....lol

what is happiness?

Maybe it's a a bit stupid question, but I often think about it seriously these days.

What is happiness? how are people satisfied with their life? or can we totally become happy?

Since happiness can be considered in so many aspects, it's hard to say this is it. Of course I think living in developed country is enough to say I am happy, but here, I will talk about career plan in Japan.

So what's happiness in terms of working?

credo?

challenge things what peoole really want to do?

good income?

fixed place?

value of company's brand?

security for life?

I can't arrange them above in order. I mean I don't know which one is the most important for me.

I really want to share this question with many people and to know others' way of thinking.