I just don't know

My head hurts..


I don't know what's real or not...


I really thought it was real I was really there.


But it was just a dream, it never happened..


I'm so fucking confused..


I was there I saw what happened but they said it never did..


Is this what they called side effects of the drug??


I'm getting nauseous every time I think of any logical explanation of what happened...


And ending up for one answer... it is only a dream...

Same Fu*king Day

It's so HOT in here....


I think I'm going to have nosebleeds for real...


Been drinking cold water every time and my stomach is getting filled up...


I want ice cream but if do have it.. I'll throw up later


My Mama went to the pharmacy to buy new syringes and needles for my shots that will start again tomorrow...


This is some hellish day

Yay!! My Favorite o(^▽^)o

Since I endured the pain...



My mama cooked Menudo for me today...




Mmm... yummy..





Can't wait to eat now

My song for HIM

I just wish I can take him with me

Anywhere

Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand

[CHORUS:]
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name

I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the mornings light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you now

I got Shot 5 Times 。・ﾟﾟ･(≧д≦)･ﾟﾟ･｡

My personal nurse Arriane didn't have enough sleep on her last duty...

So I end up shot 5 times...

4 were failures making the IV bulge and swollen...

And the funny thing was the 5th shot was done through a very thin vein but it went through easily unlike the 4 that was done on a bigger vein..

Well it was a relief when it was over but both of my arms hurt again





Now I'm sooooooooo having problems while I smoke.. I can't bend and stretch my arms