Yea! I came back in Ameba!!!I so missed about everybody!!! Konnichiva!
I think about my life... I was live for nothing. No one special reason. I just waited my death... But now when I was fall in love, I live with waiting when I will see my beloved... He is so far.. But he is always in my heart. I understand that now if I will lost him, I will die... To commit suicide is not so difficult when you understand that you have nothing in life... Family is hate me, mother wants to make me slave. So I will fight for my love! Now I search work and then after operation, I will go from family. I want to change my life on this year! I have right to live! I want to be better!!! 
real is horror for me.. It is so terrible to be lonely...
real is horror for me.. It is so terrible to be lonely... How you spend you holiday time? I stay at home near pc^^ it is not sad as you may think^^
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Happy new year, my dear friends!!! I wish to you all the best!!
21 december! All people in Russia afraid these day because on TV every day everybody talk about End of life. Everybody will die!!! Heh. I think that govermant do it specially.... For panic and chaos. It is crazy. They talk that it will be because Maya calendar will finish tomorrow. Anybody will die? I am not sure^^