homeless

so i will sell my bed tmr and i will have nowhere to sleep!
i was going to book a hotel room right, since i didnt wanna bother anybody.
plus i have to teach in ikebukuro the next day, i just cant stay with my fds, who live like an hr away.
and my bf.. i didnt bother asking to stay at his place coz i just know how his mothers like.
but ended up i couldnt find any room anywhere coz sat is just a busy day to book a room..
guess everyone in tokyo just decided to stay in a hotel on sat nite and not go home!
so i had no choice, and my bf offered once again to stay at his place.
i didnt want to. i really didnt.
so he asked his mom.. and remember, she was so NICE to me b4, or she pretended to be for a while.
then she was like, y doesnt she stay somewhere else?..
and my bf called me afterwards.. we were joking maybe she was gonna say y wouldnt i stay on the street?
but yeh, theres the saying right, like u could see whos actually real to u when ur in trouble.
guess im in that situation now.
as i said b4, i should be thankful to be able to see all these.

be grateful

my afterthoughts for this whole experience.
though im still kinda sad to leave, im glad that i got to know many things that i wouldnt have known if i didnt come.
i got to know who actually cares about me.
how a jerk my bf actually could be.
how much i actually need my family, and how much im loved by them.
though im sad to go, im happy to have learned all these.
i should be thankful.

sick like hell

i was so sick last nite i cried.
i just wanna go home now!
dun wanna be alone..
dun wanna feel sick like this..
but its gonna be winter soon,
and its going to be a difficult winter for me this yr.
i wanna get over it!