Funeral and graduation

I was shocked when my grandpa was dead.

He looked so bad, and every time I thought about him, I had pain on my heart

because he looked so painful...

Yesterday, I went to his funeral.

What I thought mainly was two thing:

First, live for a day as best I can. Secondly, be kind to people, especially family.

Thanks for reminding me of them, my grandpa.

Today, I had a graduation ceremony and speech on behalf of about 1,000 students.

I could get confidence because I could read it in a big voice and with my feeling as a practice.

At the same time, I could get my weak point; two things.

First, my style. I walk, read whatever, bending my back.

Second, trembling fingers and foot.

I don't have to be afraid of making mistakes.

And what's more important is to control my feeling and voice.

I have a big voice, but I don't have power and courtesy.

I am a woman, so they're both important.

This is the next aim for me.

My grandpa

I saw him today because it was the last time he could go back home.

As soon as I saw him, I was shocked and almost fainted.

He is completely different from January 1st.

He become so skinny, cannot move enough and speak out.

I was crying because I couldn't imagine he was going to die that fast.

What can I do for him now?

I will visit him in the hospital tomorrow, too.

I hope that he has a good time with us.

Volunteer in school

I've never thought children look down on me.

However, it does happen.

Today, I was hit in my face by a boy.

He is a little bit difficult boy because of his handicap and especially his pride.

I hope to have both kindness and strictness.

The problem is that I am not flexible.

I tend to focus on only one side, not both side appropriately.

In additon to it, what I learned today is that even in the daily life, teacher teach them something.

For example, a teacher sing a song 'Head, shoulders, knees and toes.' to them while waiting for a bus.

Therefore, they can learn the names of bodies. I am so impressed.

Teacher work as a teacher completely in front of children.