It doesn't matter what brings you happiness...
Different people means different things will make people happy.
Lately I've been trying to figure out what can make me happy...
I'm an unsigned, undiscovered singer-songwriter who posts her songs on YouTube. I've always thought that if I get discovered and become signed, that would be my life set forever. I thought that being signed meant I would be happy. I naturally thought that after being signed, everything that comes afterwards would be pure bliss.
However lately...I've been having doubts....
Doubts in myself...
Doubts in my life...
I've always thought being discovered...being noticed as a capable singer-songwriter would bring me happiness in life.
Recently, I took part in a school competition called Battle of The Sounds where bands and solo artists competed against each other.
I won the acoustic, solo arena of this competition however I didn't receive the price I originally entered for...
I wanted to win the price...because this price was recording time...
I wanted so badly at that time to record my songs...I still do actually...
I thanked God though for letting me win.
Despite this, I feel like the performing buzz that was once within me was extinguished.
Performing no longer gives me the adrenaline rush it used to...
Writing songs no longer makes me happy like it used to...
On top of that I've been investigating other aspects of my life which needs improvement.
For example, my pathetic, non-existent love life...
Most 16 year olds would already be in their 2nd or 3rd boyfriend yet I haven't even had one!
I'm not complaining though. I just want to know what makes me like this.
What happened to my happiness that was there before?
Now...I'm on my way to pursue it once more.
