I cant just be myself when Im talking to ya
Thats a huuuuuuuuge problem of me...isnt it
Though it is just one of many....
Its really hard not saying
"I miss you...."
" I wanna talk to ya more..."
or...
" I 
you..."
I know I cant say that coz
you're gonna say nothing...
I dont want that
seriously...
Do you remember the timethe only time,
we talk about our relationship
You wernt quite answering my question...
Just....saying.....
"dont know....."
You know you could just say "NO" to me...
It was the easiest way to get out this...
well what shoud it be called?
eternal...going-aroud thinking? laugh
.......HOLD ON
Am I thinking TOO MUCH again
Trying adjusting myself to him too much
Okay, I tell the truth here...
I .
wanna talk online with him more
wanna email him more often
.....and getting email back from him
wanna.....hear you...
wanna hug you...and...more
BUT
I know...
He should be busy.
living in a domitory is not like, living by himself
.....he may not have feeling as I do for him....
wooohoooooo
Someone deeeeply negative
is here...tonight.
Okay.....SO
now is the time, to SMILE and be HAPPY
negative feeling doesnt produce anything but sadness
I .
got a feeling for him
which is very stable... not like a crush
I .
know I cant change this long-distance situation
and never want change my life because of a guy
I .
gotta my stuff to finish up here! and its my choice
and...
I believe.
Its not something like, gotta get an clear answer right now.
SO
What I do is just
concentrate my study and my life here
Its a commonplace word, but
There will be something if the thing is meant to be
.....and the promise of mariage
,when we reach 30 marrying no one,
is still valid, isnt is
hun