This is about relationship.
This is about life.
You know...the moment you'd regret yourself the most...
the moment that makes you hate yourself the most...
the moment you'd feel so so foolish about yourself...
is the moment
when you found photos...
lots of photos...inside the screen...and the crowd...the place...you used to be in...
with lots of familiar smiles...joys...sparkling...
but...
you're not there...
is the moment
that you found out...that you're not a part of
somebody's memory...
not even a little... no...nothing...
is the moment
every memories broke apart...
you notice that...all the stuffs...happiness...friendships...they were fake...
they were...only some stupid stuffs...expectations...that you've made up...
is the moment
you go blind...deaf...totally in the middle of nothingness...
dizzy...dizzy...dizzy...
reach out for something...something...help?
is the moment
you realize...there's actually no one...that you'd rely on...
you realize a false in you...what makes you look miserable...
you realize...that you weren't crazy...or anything...
but...
you were just...boring...
It is all about relationships...
It is all about life...
You are your life...you own it...you control it...and no one else does...
I just wanna live my life...control it in the way I like...
but...relationships...tough things...
you can't go along well with it...if you don't understand and recognize other's lives...
People around me...I guess...they were expecting something...
something inside me...which I don't really have...
When they find out that I don't really have...
humors...entertainments...funs...times...intelligence...money...whatsoever...
then...therefore...
it's the moment people leave me...
the moment I screwed up...myr relationships...my life...everything...
the moment...of blank...
Who would want to hang out with a person with nothingness??
I messed my life up on my own...I know it...
but...please...
I just want a voice...to lead me...to tell me...
that actually...
I'm not alone...
that actually...
there someone beside you...
that actually...
I am doing okay...and I still have a chance...
So
This is my life...
This is me...here...
Who would love you...
if you don't love yourself??