Feels like I’m sinking 
below the water
no one notices me I’m choking
I’m here
You’re up there 
I now don’t know how 
to get up again
to stand up again 

Letting go is easy 
when you have lots of time to think
because you can think of it
again and again 
until you get bored to just think about that

it’s not going to take you anywhere
anywhere good or
anywhere bad
but you keep thinking 
because that’s what you’ve got now

You are good enough
I keep telling 
I keep telling my friends
when they got stressed
when they seem lost 
I say “you’re going to be ok
nothing bad lasts forever
you are good enough”
but do I do that to myself too?

Every night
I have a nightmare
where I’m running from something 
where I’m completely lost and trying to figure out 
where I am
Where the hell am I? 

Will I ever come back on
the right track?
Will I ever be ok again? 
Am I good enough?
Isn’t it too late? 
Or is it?