Why do I keep wirting this blog?

Dear Dadu,

I am not sure a day when you read this blog is coming or not.

If the day comes, what is the reason to make me make up my mind to tell you this blog?

When we started dating, I was a person who just want to be given, like I wrote before.

I just wanted to know if you love me or not.

Did I show you how much I loved you?

Did I tell you the first date when you asked a person where the restaurant with a map, I was fall in love with you so much. Even you couldn't speak English, you asked a Japanese person the way to go to the restaurant.

That time, I felt I would be safe as long as you were next to me.

From the first, You were the person who I was waiting for so long time.

You gave me a lot happiness, safe and precious time.

I was so spoiled and didn't realize I hadn't given you anything.

I didn't listen to you, I didn't see you.

I didn't to try to know you.

Dadu,

You have changed me.

Now, I want to know you,

I want to know what you see, What you tell..................

so please tell me what you want.....................

My happiness is to give you what you want,

Yes, I love you give me your love.

That makes me happy, however, What is makes me the happiest person is to make you happy.

If you are happy with what I do, that makes me the happiest person.

You have changed me.

My feeling for my future

Dadu,

When I feel happy, I want to hear your voice.

When I feel sad, I want to hear your voice.

You make my happiness bigger and bigger,

You make my sadness smaller and smaller.

Once I said I want to quite job when I get married to you.

Actually I was just a child at that time.

I was just thinking to be given by you.

Now I am not.

I will keep working as much as I can and when you are tired I want you to take a rest.

I want to give you something and I want you to feel safe as same as I feel safe when I am with you.

Dadu,

Long time I was worried if my love to you is confortable with you?

However, that night

You told me the days with me is the most beautiful in your life.

You told me I am the most important person to you.

I believe what you said.

So I believe I am the person who can you the happiest person.

I am the only one person who can make you the happiest person.

Dear my boyfriend.

Dear My sweetest boyfriend,

I asked you

"Do you have any girl in your heart?"

almost one month back, June 9th.

That actually has made myself be in trouble.

From the day, you are so sweet and I really want to take back the words.

What I am scared the most is to lose "faith" from you. I feel I am losing it...................................

Yesterday,

I mailed you suddenly " aitai".

You made time for me. I didn't know you had a meeting with your friend the night, however, you took care my "aitai".

Arigato for having a time with me.

Arigato for taking care of my feeling.

You bake a pan cake today.

I love pan cakes which you bake for me.

Arigato for having a lunch with me before you meet your friend......

Only yesterday and today,

I feel you spoiled me.

When I asked about Indian Restaurant, you became in a bad mode.

That is what I have done to myself in June 9th.