it's 11 now. only 5 hours left.

it sucks.


i really had a great time with my sister.

and i hope she did too.


but i feel kind a sorry for her.

i sometimes got irritated and im sure i made her feel bad.

but that's my mom's fault!!!!!!!!

i was pist off when everytime she compared us.


One mounth seems kinda long but

it was tooo short!


Mari is already 23 and she is an adult.

she changed a little bit than 2 years ago but im glad that she could do

stupid things that we used to do when we were more young!


im sure that ill miss her baaad.

and it really sucks the fact that we live in a different countries.

but sometimes i think that if we lived in the same country,

same house, and face eachother everyday,

i would not be albe to know how much she gives an influence

to my life. and i think we would be fighting everyday

like i do with Ken now if we did lived together. lol

So in that point, maybe it is a good thing that

we dont live together.

maybe..


but it sucks.


today, we will leave the house around 1

and go to the airport by car.

i think we will get there around 3 or 4.

and meet Ken there.


Her flight is 6.

i hate the 1 or 2 hours after her check in and

before her flight.

cause you know, its very hard not to cry and

knowing that she will leave in 1 or 2 hours and

trying not to cry, trying to laugh, trying to hide our feelings...

VERY painful.


well anyway.

i have to hop in the shawer and get ready!


えりかに影響され、


はじめてしまいました


うえいっ






昨日はうちでPARTYだたよ


楽しかったな~


えりかなみちゃんもきてくれて




楽しかったです!


えりかはおとまりして、夜中3時くらいまで


かたったね~


夜はやばい!笑


そして切ない!




今日はえりかと立川でお買い物




5時くらいにばあ~い


明日から気をつけていってらっしゃい。


楽しんできてねえ!










あと6日でまりが帰るよおう


なんか切なくなってきます。




まりがきて2週間目くらいに


やっぱり家族とかにまりといつも


比べられてて、


あんたもまりみたいに、とか


まりはこうなのに、なんであんたは?


みたいにさっ






比べられんの大嫌い






だから、なんかまりにもあたっちゃってたな


ごめんなさい。




やばい~


自分別れに人一倍弱いです。


すでになきそうです。






1ヶ月て本当あっという間なんだね、


はやすぎる!






あとの6日間、楽しんで


たくさん写真とって


ばかやって


土曜日は笑顔でばいばいできるように


しなきゃねっ