戻ってきてまだ会ってないけどね
SNSなんもないとやっぱり暇つぶしが出しなくなるし、余計なにしてるか気になったりもするけど...
引っ越したらインスタとTwitterはじめようかな。
新しいアカウントで心機一転！
なんかでもやっぱりまだ胸が苦しくなる時がある
もっと自信もってこうじのことも信用しないといけないのに。
なんとなくだけどこうじがこっち戻ってきて気持ちが楽になった気がする！
あんな恐れてた卒論もあいこにも助けてもらって書き上げたし、なんとか卒業は出来ると思う
これから一緒に住むってなってからなんかいろんなタイミングかさなったりして、ずっとイライラする。
考えすぎてしまう自分がうざい
そもそも、るみをそういうふうにさせてるこうじがうざい
一語一句が嘘に聞こえてきちゃう
一瞬だけさめてしまった気持ちをどうにか元に戻そうと必死になってる
嫌いとかじゃないけど、ただ辛い
これから一緒に住み始めてやってけるか不安に思ってきた
気持ち的にるみには余裕がない
なにか証がほしい
じゃないとるみ狂うよこのままいったら
引越しも就職もこわい
最近まいにち苦しい
つかれた
とりあえず泣きたいだけなこう
すこしでもすっきりすることを願って
I still remember the day I left you.
I kept playing this song while waiting to board and even after boarding.
The last night with you was just the ordinary. We both just pretended I was not leaving. We both just did not mention about me leaving the us.
When I woke up next morning you were still right next to me sleeping like a little kid as always with a huge snore.
You might not noticed but I was crying because I knew I would never be able to wake up with you. And I knew I would never be able to be there when you open your eyes.
You were the only one who I sacrificed myself for.
I was the only one who could take care of you. I am still the one and I always will be.
But hey time only travels forward.
It just never goes back.
I still love you as much as I loved you when I was still with you.
It's just better if it stays like this.
We are just living in a different world.
You should feel happy that we had our moments together including all the downs.
You were my precious one and you will always be.
But we must live in where we are now.
It's not a bad thing to have more than one person to love.
I am happy as long as you are happy.
And you should feel the same too.
I am happy about what I have right now and I don't wanna lose it.
We both deserve happiness.
I know you've changed a lot. I can tell that. And I'm really proud of you.
You should always treat your girl like a princess. And don't let her down.
I just hope to see you with a huge smile when I visit the us :)
I wish you all the bests and the happinesses.
I miss you!