I've been thinking about Jay and I a lot since I moved in to his room. I was happy before, but I was not sure if I am happy to be with him and if he is happy to be with me. The thing is he has lots of friends from home, and he always is hanging out with them. To be honest, I'm jealous sometimes. I mean it's really nice to have your friends from home here, I think they are very lucky. I do have a few friends here, but not from my town. If I had some friends from home here, it would be super great. Of course I understand him, but if you hangout your friends and having fun with them all the time, you don't need me, do you? I don't drink alcohol at all and I don't go to parties anymore, we have nothing in common, do you think we still can work it out? I don't know, for me that is a big question mark. I don't feel that I am cared and protected from you, maybe you're not use to in a relationship? But I think it's not about if you're use to it or not. It's about if you really care about the other one, isn't it? So if you don't, don't call me my gf. I don't need a bf who doesn't care about me, I don't need that shit anymore. I've had enough that shit in my life. I need to talk to you more and share about our feelings more. In a relationship is not easy at all, that's why I need someone who cares about me, makes me happy and makes me feel comfortable. I will see for a little while and what's gonna happen. I hope he cares and we can work it out.
