先日、、、
２７歳という若さで亡くなったエイミーワインハウス。
あたしは彼女の声をはじめて耳にしたとき
衝撃しかなかった。。
こんな歌が声が
この若さで？？！！っってね
声はどんどん変わる
歌は
あたしは
その人の人生を映し出すと思っている
声がある限り
みんな歌う事は出来る
上手いとか下手とか
そんなんじゃない
そこにはその人が歩んで来た幸福や
悲しみや
苦しみや
たくさんの感情というカラーを経験しなければ
伝える事が出来ないと
あたしは感じている
そして
素直さ
彼女は薬物やアルコール依存症等でのスキャンダルが多々あったが
人間の弱さや強さや
何よりもストレートな感覚や
その裏に潜む陰的なものを
歌から感じたから
好きだったのかもしれない
いつでも強くありたいけど
弱さがあるから
強さもあるんだと
何よりも
感情という
人間にしかない感覚を
良い悪いは抜きにして
出すという事
その潔さが
あたしは好きなのかもしれないね
100％好かれる事は難しい
共感される事も難しい
でもいつかって
思いながら
そんな自分を信じてたりするのかな
何度聞いても
やっぱりこの声が好きだよ
Amy Winehouse - Tears Dry On Their Own
All I can ever be to you,
is the darkness that we knew
And this regret I had to get accustomed to
Once it was so right
When we were at our high,
Waiting for you in the hotel at night,
I knew I hadn't met my match,
But every moment we could snatch,
I don’t know why I got so attached,
It’s my responsibility,
And you don’t owe nothing to me,
But to walk away I have no capacity
He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I’m grown,
And in this grey, in this blue shade,
My tears dry on their own
I don’t understand,
Why do I stress a man,
When there’s so many better things at hand,
We could never had it all,
We had to hit a wall,
So this is inevitable withdrawlal,
Even if I stop wanting you,
And perspective pushes through
I’ll be some next man's other woman soon,
I shouldn't play myself again,
I should be my own best friend,
Not fuck myself in the head with stupid men,
He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I’m grown,
And it's ok,
In this blue shade
My tears dry on their own,
So we are history,
Your shadow covers me,
The sky above,
A blaze only that only lovers see
He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I’m grown,
And (it's) ok,
In this blue shade,
My tears dry on their own,
I wish I could say no regrets,
And no emotional debts,
And as we kiss goodbye the sun sets,
So we are history,
The shadow covers me,
The sky above a blaze that only lovers see,
He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I'm grown,
And (it's) ok,
In this blue shade,
My tears dry on their own,
He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I am grown,
And (it's) ok,
In this blue shade,
My tears dry on their own,
He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I am grown,
And (it's) ok,
My deep shade,
My tears dry.