i am always fucked up i am being obsesed with XXXX!!!!!!
always waiting...happy comes after sad and vice versa.
he can leave me anytime he wants and i am just manipulated by the acting.
want to live with my life and want to forget about all i have.
never thought he's missed me and thinking of me when i am doing so.
i know it's kinda pointless to pursue or expect something good for the future.
it's tiring to think about less possibility we have.
i hate myself that i still expect something b/w us
and more from him.
although he sometimes said to me girls are the ones who manipulate guys for fun
BUT i def. think guys are like that unconciously!!!