I am having doubts right now God.
I am not denying the time to be with You.
You are still very important in my life.
And I dun think you should be the area that I choose to sacrifice.
Your area should be no less. (though you really occupy a big part of my life)
However, I have no complaint in it.
I want to find a way to balance out.
I am getting jealous.
I am being stressed.
I am upset. I am angry. I feel no way to out.
我最大既問號係: 點解要退讓個個係我? 點解我要選擇懂事地退讓?
如果個對象係袮, 我冇問題. 但對象係其他人, 其他朋友, 我就好有所謂.
你話佢係一個弟兄姊妹,, tbh, 我都唔get到點解家人就要退讓?
佢係一個新朋友/未信, 可能我會多少少耐性, 職責/責任/愛心會成為我退讓既理由.
但我feel到而家呢一刻既退讓, 我沒有多少對朋友既愛存在.
這刻既選擇, 只會讓我愈來愈討厭朋友, 討厭自己.
如果係耶穌, 你會點做?
我思考中既諗法又係咪正路? わがらない。
本当に辛い。寂しい。独りぼっち。
助けて。ぼろぼろの心にhealingにおねがい。