Holistic
2010-01-25 19:26:54 テーマ：ブログ
Scars of perfection
I am a very shallow person with brain the size of an amoeba, so that sentence really isn't the title of some intense theory.
But that was what went through my mind as water was pouring down on me from the shower head. I was looking at those stretchmarks that have been with me since the dawn of time and searching for new ones which I was hoping would appear.
And I just started wondering these ugly white lines of imperfection don't bother me that much at all. Maybe because they remind me of those times when I was further away from the goal than I am now. Or maybe, they remind me of how near I am to nirvana. (Since being thin induces enlightenment and hence bliss and serenity will come my way)
But one thing I know for sure is that, they are my trophies. They showed me how far I have come and the effort I have put in. They are my natural occurring tattoos. Plain, yet meaningful. Flawed but still extraordinary.
Somehow, I just cannot bear to do them away.
I am a very shallow person with brain the size of an amoeba, so that sentence really isn't the title of some intense theory.
But that was what went through my mind as water was pouring down on me from the shower head. I was looking at those stretchmarks that have been with me since the dawn of time and searching for new ones which I was hoping would appear.
And I just started wondering these ugly white lines of imperfection don't bother me that much at all. Maybe because they remind me of those times when I was further away from the goal than I am now. Or maybe, they remind me of how near I am to nirvana. (Since being thin induces enlightenment and hence bliss and serenity will come my way)
But one thing I know for sure is that, they are my trophies. They showed me how far I have come and the effort I have put in. They are my natural occurring tattoos. Plain, yet meaningful. Flawed but still extraordinary.
Somehow, I just cannot bear to do them away.
