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these days, i feel ugly. it's weird, i wake up and get dress .. i feel great, but once i'm at work .. i feel ugly.

so rui is officially going to change his last name from Nakata 中田 to Fujihara 藤原 (yes, like fujiwara in initial d ;p. which meant, he officially cutting his tie with his dad. he also didnt want me to carry that last name. i like it, i like it alot.

my mind has just been fill with my future planning .. marriage, baby, travelling, spending my life with rui

hmm what else? so i find it weird, actually not weird .. there's so many strange people on his planet. but i think it's so dumb for people to put themselves in a stupid situation. as a bystander, i really wonder how they can end up in something like that. so like V* is dating this guy who is like 30+ she just turned 19. apparently she is a virgin (i dont think these things are important anymore...but anyways) this guy is like a total asshole, she knows it and she just kept begging to go back to him. he just wont admit that they are in a relationship and it turned into them just having casual sex. but i really think she should not whine about it tho, you put yourself in this situation .. seriously
and then there's B*sir, i admit he's pretty good looking but i'm not attracted to him at all! nor a bunch of people i know lol. he's a player, he looks like one, act like one. very sleazy so like he's dating D*girl who just got out of a really violent relationship which was another stupid story. so like they're dating but they're not admitting to it. i just feel that if he's man enough, then admit it. so what if you admit to it? oh right, you want to score more girls and not just sticking to one. haha .. what a doucheface. but thinking of that, i would never put myself through that weird kind of situation. i guess it's kinda ironic for me to say, but i never felt that i had any things like that going on. sure rui and i argue sometimes and i do exaggerate on the things i say. but he never really treated me like shit. there's no point of saying this but i just had to get it out of my system. it bugs me but whatever, there are too many types of people in this world.

also, i feel like aruging with people. just yelling at them for no reason (most of the time there is one) like chris said before, i really did gave them too much credit. but i've realized that you really have to stand up for yourself because they'll be ridicious mean and pick on you. im so annoyed just thinking about it. haha

i need to pick up a book and read more. i tried reading harry potter again but this time, i barely finish a page .. and chuck the book somewhere ..

there's so many things to do. but these days i feel so tried.. i think it's because of work. my mom wants to replace our old heat furnace. so my sister and i will be paying some of it which will help out alot. want to take some load off my dad so he wont be tired. i need to finish my portfolio. i want to get suteki na okusan magazine. haha because it has tsuji nozomi!! AND she's getting her own book out, i want it!! maybe i'll get rui's mom to get it.

rui's friend kevin's wife kafumi gave birth to a baby girl, they named her kurumi. she's very adorble. ofcourse, it really made me want to have a baby too .. nothing too much been happening these days, working, hanging out .. seeing rui .. that's all .. but we did went to the preseason for nhl hockey! canucks vs anaheim we lost 3-2 BUT that doesnt matter because i caught a tshirt from the fin (canucks' mascot). THAT was awesome

im must get ready for school .. then off to work at 730 .. to help out a coworker ..

my last post, i sounded so emo, which is really lame because deep inside, i knew that rui and i will be together again. half way through i didnt even remember what we were fighting about. yea, but everything is fine now .. he apologized and i forgave him. we went to manuel's farewell party at his/vanessa's place. i cant believe he's leaving in two days. time passed by fast, and tammy will be really sad once he left .. but they make a really cute couple. i'll miss his annoying voice haha and how he talks: esl

we talked about work, dirty stuff, made fun of each other. it was fun. tammy is officially a pokemon
haha, it was a fun night. rui even stayed over at my house too. i woke up this morning with a pimple on my face AND coldsore .. i only had one smirnoff and some chips .. wtf