2011-10-01 15:08:13
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It took me a while to make a final decision,
but I just decided to move forward.
I deserve someone who loves me. That's it.
So hope I will meet the "Mr. Right" in the near future!
Until then, I'll just stay positive, do my jobs, meet new people,
pursue my dreams, love people around me, and live strong!!!
Cheers to the brighter future...
It's been a month...BUT I don't know how to move on!!!
OMG...it's real hard this time as well...hummm.
Well, I'm kind of thinking that it could work if I forget about him
in the same way of quitting smorking...meaning, recognize it as if
I had NO relationship with it ever.
...I know relationship stuff doesn't go that easy...
Maybe just the time can solve this...or a new love...hopefullly!
Today, on the way to the station, i realized that
my right hand was light...and I knew why...
It was because I wasn't wearing the ring which I got
from him as a bday present last year, exactly a year ago.
In fact, it wasn't a huge diamond ring, but a beautiful silver ring,
so it shouldnt have been that heavy...
However, i have been feeling like that during this past week...
WHY?
That's because it meant so much to me. Really, meant a lot.
That tiny ring was the one which I could feel he was with me all the time
though we were far from each other physically...
So when I was wearing that ring, I felt connected strongly to him...
But after our breaking up, I quit putting it on, cuz I had to get over him.
I wanted to remove everything reminds me of him...
However...I'm still stuck with a lot of memories with him in my mind,
and in any ways, I feel sad.. what a shame...
Well, but obviously my life is going on, cuz it's my bday.
Time passes no matter what... There's no way to stop the time...
So one day in the future, I wish I could have a bright & happy bday again!
Happy Birthday to me...
When I opened the door at 4:30am today,
I saw a very beautiful morning glow and
I wanted to capture that scene...
The sky was changing so fast, and
I felt like it was telling me like
"You should move on. The life is chaging and
it's full of excitements, you can't just stay at one place!"
That's what I felt when I was watching the morning glow today...
Maybe...maybe...I should move on....someday...
It was a super duper sunny day and the sky was all cleared
with no cloud.
After heavy rain, the sky was cleared up.
So as my heart...after crying so hard, I felt better and light.
Though I still miss him, I have to move on no matter what.
So I removed him from all of my online network including Facebook.
I also packed things which contain memories w/ him today...
I dont know how I can live my life from now on,
but when I feel sad remembering him, I would cry as much as I want
and my heart would be clear up like the sky.
Wishing for the bright and sunny future...
I was supposed to be with him in the future
and I also wanted to go so many places with him...
but my dream won't come true...
I really need to go back to NY now...
God, please let me go back to the right place to be...
Life is tough... but it's still goin on and on...
気付けばあら、全く更新してなかったわ。。。
周りの友達を見ていて、最近自分のパワー不足を実感した。
忙しい忙しいといいつつ、実は無駄な時間もいっぱい。
そんな自分に嫌悪感。
それなのになかなかそこから抜け出せないダメな私。
ちょうど今年も終わりゆくところだし、私のNY生活もしかり。。。
来年は年頭からもっとパワフルに、アクティブに動くわ！
そして、振り返ったときに大満足できるような1年にしよう。
人生一度きり、後悔の無いようにね。
自分の決意表明のため、久々のブログ更新でした。
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