『I AM JUN~ よろしく～！』

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STOP PMING ME

And lemonkaru,whoever you are...

I seriously hate the way you put it that you are leaving the world.You think you keep telling someone that you are not going to live for long you can earn sympathy.Please,sympathy is not by words but by feeling.I am sorry that you are leaving this world but still i want to say,your attitude sucks.

And i find it very matter that if someone is going to die and he or she has said good words,i will want to remember the person for his or her good deeds.But sadly,you think it does not matter...i think that kind of thinking is just truly pathetic.

You tell someone to be on their feet and don't lose hope...but you set a bad example for yourself,cause you lose hope instead.It become a joke coming from someone who lose hope to tell someone not to lose hope.

Still,i hope the time you go you can rest in peace.

This is a confession.In fact,a big one.

I have a miserable life...more likely to use the word pathetic.That's right,P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C and you never spell it wrong.

Why?

I realised there are just too many things that i can't do it right.Maybe that's normal...But i always tell myself hey what is the big deal about the past...now is different...still,nothing has change at all.Why am i so different? People study in Secondary School...i also study in Secondary School...but i was not the same.People lead a wonderful life with friends...and a wonderful peaceful life but i was not...I got bullied for 5 years and there was once i fought back...i got punished as well when i was the one who reported the person who did a part to bully me.From then on...i just get bully...and it is just useless to fight back cause it will never work.People got friends who help...i got friends who i live in their shadow.They walk ahead of me,while i just stay behind whenever i am needed.

Those were the past...but why is it just so hard to forget about it.People go out often while i always stay at home often.Till now,it never changes.It is not like i completely don't have any friends...but those friends have their own friends and they always got better event.

I given no hope in falling in love,each time i do...it was always an one sided thing.People say you should pursue your happiness...but everytime those who manage to gain the happiness is always the female who like them.Don't say i am wrong,this is a fact.But when one guy who like the girl and go for her,it always fail.Not every guy,but especially me who i am focusing.You will never know the reason why...cause everytime you got rejected...you will never get to see the girl anymore...maybe not for you but it is for me.

Please do not and really,DO NOT tell me that don't care about what others say most importantly is yourself...just being yourself is enough...unfortunately,that kind of mindset is what i cannot accept.

I am not a loner but why am i leading a life just like a loner? Being quiet is no good,i admit...but i rather keep it quiet than talking things i not suppose to say in front of new people.Agree with me...time will tell whether i will be a good person to be with.One thing i always learn is to never,never stick to the same mistake in friendship or whatever ship.You will never see me repeating my wrong...

It is not easily to purge out negative thoughts...when you are seriously deep in thoughts...So don't blame me for this post...it is just words that was going to explode out.

I seriously need a haircut.I am satisfied with my hair back...but not my front...it is growing weird and simply...strange.

And i wore my cap yesterday,surprisely when i never wear it for a such long time already.Reason is because i never style my hair ROFL,that is why i wear my cap.Sound like cap look nicer on someone who have long hair after all...

No matter how much i change myself...i just can't change a person heart,full stop.

There are some reasons why i am more into Korean recently...the drama that i am watching...Baby VOX Re.V Ahn Jin Kyeong...Yang Eunji and WonderGirls Min Sun Ye...Other than that,also some other reason which well...some will know.

Just pissed me off...when i like their people so much but they like ang moh instead.Really very 日本...

Anyway,the one who wrote Death Note came out a new manga called Bakuman.Not sure whether it will be as good as Death Note but worth a try since its from the same guy.