i still miss u.
i still like u. no, i don't know....
the day after i stayed with u..... this wave of loneliness suddenly captures me.
hey.... ur warmth was not something i had known. i didn't know this comfort can exist... in me.
too sweet to last? has there been anything i said it wasn't?
who made it so? the answer is obvious.
since my first mistake..... have i changed anything?
hey..... you know, i tried. or tried to try.
is it just because i am so green? lacking sth as a person? that'd be so depressing.
i loved myself at times. but now.... wanna tear everything in me. like those memories. even tho they are sweet.
as if i could renew them into sth clean if i did so.
didn't i get strong? was that strength something unshakable?
how many times do i wanna repeat this? no. no more.
then!! i have to change the way i..... do things. hey it's not something that just began.
history repeats itself? what a useful excuse.
trying to forget u.... while saying i'm bored with u.
vanity? egotism? could i ever love someone in a different way?
hey..... i know what i'm doing. how terrible i am.
it's true i got used to this struggle. almost gave it up.
but i don't want it that way anymore.
thank u for sharing time with me.
it was sweet and bitter. honestly not the way i wanted it.
but that shouldn't be something i can complain.
i'm glad that i met u. here. now.
if i can see u again...... i will try to become richer as a person by then.
so..... i will..... change................ somehow.
i have tried not to fall in love with anybody. so. many. times. it never did or will work.
but now... i will try. not. to. fall in love blindly. before i think i know the person well enough.
is it something everyone else can easily manage?
sudden hunch is important. but the speed i heat it up... should be slower.
and my entire life shouldn't be shaken by it. well i guess that was the main problem.
now. control myself.
hey. u made my days. many of them. with the sunshine u gave me
be happy, okay?