I ate too much at vietnamese restaurant today.
with awesome coffee, appertizer, meats and friends.
You know it's Saturday afternoon.
I was supposed to help my roomie at his gallery. but could't help my temptation of getting noodles cuz noodles are my passion! Definitely so much better than talking piss on airplane.
anyhow, we didn't get noodles instead we got 7 different meat on one dish. they were delicious, exotic, and sexy. Vietnamese, man. they are sweet but hardcore like their french drip coffee with condensed milk. Yeah it's unexpected. Americans had no idea in the 60s for sizzle.
Lazy Lazy lazy lately.
I quit my job cuz people there are total dickhead. I couldn't stand them anymore. after thinking seriously I wanna do after quitting, I just looked for a serious fashion selling job.
Totally failed like teen idols' opening ceremonial pitch before a baseball game.
shit it was pathetic.
then I found one job but it's really far on the other side of town. that's good but they don't pay me for shit.
I mean I know I am full of uncertainty for them but How the fuck am I gonna live with $6.5/hour wage.!!!!
Insane man. I guess I am worth less than a house dog or something.
More importantly, where I am gonna be next a few months?
What the fuck am I gonna do to survive?
I don't wanna be a bum dude.
Brothers talk about struggles and shit like that. and is this difficulty derived from my laziness, my disqualification, or simply my yellow skin? Not sure really
I just wanna simple and stable but a bit fun job that pay me enough.
I am gonna be 29 next year for fuck sake. I am OLD! I need STABILITY definitely not UNCERTAINTY!!
Definitely, this is the consequence of being a student fo too long. but it shouldn't be this tough to make a simple living with a bit of fun you know?
Los Angeles is fun but brutal sometimes.
Everything looks good on the surface but there are some dirty ass shit underneath like flat boys house's garbage can. if you look deep in the dirt, there are some treasures hidden in the middle of it. You really gotta look and talk to people. Like art and music scene.
ahhh fuck this, really fuck this. I am tired of this mess.
If I am barely surviving here, I betta get the fuck outta here b4 it gets too late.
but not sure really.
So this song fits my mood,
Joy Division - Disorder