早く、 ずっと秋へ 。

So, this morning a friend texted me, telling me that Kagrra, will disband. And the official notification is now spreading everywhere. Yes, it's true.

What am I going to do?
Kagrra, is practically half of my spirit. They're always be my number 1, no matter what. And now since they're demising, I don't think this life is gonna be the same anymore.

Of course I will get over my sadness, eventually.

But right now I really don't know what to do, or what to think.
I'm doing my work like usual, talking to my co-workers like nothing happened... I guess I can be a pretty damn good actress if I have to.

*sigh*
Okay, all I have to do is to pull myself together and deal with the fact.
I wanted to cry, more than I could count, but I had to hold my tears back, because crying right now (in this place, in front of these people) is just inappropriate. I'm a big girl!

But it's the most difficult to hold my tears when I read Akiya's blog just now. Reading his last comment about this... ah, it's really hard. But I managed to stay calm, although it felt freezing inside.

Akiya is... my biggest inspiration since I knew Kagrra,.
The fact that I won't see him anymore as Kagrra,'s kamite guitarist is hard to accept. But I have to. And he's still going to be my biggest inspiration, until I decide to screw with my life (I hope I won't reach that point though).

This end of November, Kagrra, members' blogs will be closed.
I don't know about the OHP though. Perhaps they'll close it too? *sigh*

Once again, I have to say, Kagrra, is so special. Akiya is so special. Isshi, Shin, Nao and Izumi are so special. Their music is so special. My feeling for them is so special.

It's impossible to say goodbye to them, but I have to, don't I...

I wish I can see them as one band again, even not as Kagrra,.

All right.
With this long entry, I... will try to enclose my sadness, try to stand together with this fact, try to accept the empty parts in my life and embrace them all together.
Somehow everything will be fine. Right, Kagrra,?


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So, about my previous entry...

After reading all DELUHI members' blog entries regarding their temporary hiatus, I feel relieved now. (*^o^*)

I believe DELUHI will come back as a greater band as they've promised to all fans.

I'll be waiting for them with a lighter heart. (＾～＾)

But by the way...

Aggy-san's entry was........ *laugh*

It wasn't impressive. *laugh*

I mean Sujk-san, Juri-san and Leda-san wrote nice entries to comfort the fans, some of them even made me touched (I was about to cry, reading Sujk-san's entries).

But Aggy-san was too casual about it. *laugh*

Doesn't matter though, that's how he is.

I was too happy at that time, finding his entry, not so long after I sent a mail to him. I'm sure A BUNCH of fanmails were sent to him that day. He made fun of our fanmails. *bitter laugh* But it's OK... he was acting casual to make sure that their hiatus is really nothing to worry about.




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Wow, it's been like... forever since I posted here.

And I decided to write something here because I just heard a bad news

about DELUHI going to be on hiatus.


Right now I feel miserable...
maybe I'm exaggerating but
it's true that I really like DELUHI so much
and I feel happy even only talking or writing stuff bout them...

They said they'll improve their skill and they asked us to believe in them, that they will come back.

Oh yes I will. I will believe in them, even though right now I'm worried sick,
but I want to believe that they will absolutely come back as a greater band with greater skills.

I'm disappointed right now, I'm so scared hearing the word 'hiatus',
because lately there're so many bad news about JRock/VK bands.
Ppl might think I'm overreacting but hey, this is I am. I'm just trying to act the way I feel.

As much as I feel worried, I also hope THE BEST for DELUHI, as a few of my favorite people out there.

DELUHI FOREVER.


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